I totally understand. But don’t you think God will be disappointed in you for harboring such thoughts? How can the person He gave dominion over the earth be considering suicide because of the challenges from the same earth? God gave you power to dominate, you probably sold your dominion for temporal pleasures, and now what you should be dominating has become your oppressor.
Let me guess, you borrowed money from so many people, and now they are all on your neck. They’ve threatened you so much that you now live in fear all day.
Proverbs 29:25 says, “The fear of man bringeth a snare: but whoso putteth his trust in the LORD shall be safe”. A snare means a mental or psychological trap. This explains why you’re suddenly having suicidal thoughts. If you don’t deal with that fear, the suicidal thoughts will increase until it is able to move your body into action.
That scripture didn’t leave us in the dark on how to deal with the fear of man; it says, “… But whosoever puts his trust in the Lord shall be safe”. You’re probably about to tell me that you’ve been praying to God about it and that God has been silent. Ofcourse, God will be silent because trusting God isn’t a possibility as long as there is fear in your heart. So, let me show you a few things to do to deal with that fear:
When fear becomes a snare, it simply means that the spirit of fear has gotten a hold on you. 2 Timothy 1:7 says, “For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind”. If you have a spirit that God did not give you, then the devil must have given it to you via your corporation. If that’s the case, it is wisdom to repent before God from whatever agreement you entered into with Satan.
At the point of repentance, your worry shouldn’t be about the people you owe or the things you’ve done, your worry should be the fact that you’ve dissapointed God. You’ve let the things of the world to silence the Spirit of God in you. That’s the mindset you’d take to the place of repentance. 2 Corinthians 7:10 says, “For godly sorrow worketh repentance to salvation not to be repented of: but the sorrow of the world worketh death”. You can’t genuinely repent if the basis for your sorrow is the debt you owe, repentance starts from godly sorrow.
“Lord, I messed up, I should have had faith in your Word. I was supposed to lend to nations and not borrow. But my lust and disobedience has given Satan room to oppress me. I repent of my disobedience, and I promise to always trust in your word from now. Restore your Holy Spirit within me, and let the joy of my salvation come alive again”.
That’s how to repent. If you dwell on the situation, you may eventually perish. Dwelling on the situation is not repentance, it is supplication. Luke 13:3 says, “… except ye repent, ye shall all likewise perish”. And according to 2 Peter 3:9, the Lord is not willing that any should perish, but that all should come to repentance.
Sin has a way of building strongholds around a situation. If you don’t repent from that sin, chances are that you’d never solve that problem. Repentance blots out sin and refreshes the situation so that it can be resolved. Acts 3:19 says, “Repent ye therefore, and be converted, that your sins may be blotted out, when the times of refreshing shall come from the presence of the Lord”. So if you’ve been trying to solve a problem and it feels like the problem has no end, sin may be responsible for that perpetuality. And the first thing you have to do is repent.
– Take responsibility
Repentance does not cancel responsibility, it only brings God on your side. And according to scriptures, nothing is impossible with God.
The reason why you were considering suicide was because you thought it was impossible to clear your debts or fix the challenge, but now that you’re with God, nothing shall be impossible. Approach the situation with the mind of Christ, knowing that you have God on your side.
Let 1 Corinthians 10:13 be your motivation. It says, “There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it”. That’s right! God has made a way for you to escape, you just have to keep pushing till you find it. Bottomline is, if you will not give up, you shall escape.
I hope this has brought deliverance to someone.
Remain ever blessed, in Jesus precious name!