“Pastor, my mother hates me and I don’t know why. She curses and treats me like a slave. I’m honestly contemplating suicide right now. Please help me”Thank

If you’re contemplating suicide just because a person hates you, then you clearly do not understand the love that God has for you.

I totally understand how you feel, believe me when I say I’ve been in your shoes before. I Iived with two mother figures that treated me like a slave. In fact one of my greatest mistakes in life is that I left the first one to live with the second one because I thought that the first one was too wicked to me. Unfortunately, the second one was worse, her entire family joined her in treating me badly.

It was very emotional for me because these are woman who were supposed to be my confidant. They treated their children like royalty, but treated me like a less privileged person. I remember how I asked the second one to talk to her husband on my behalf so I could balance my school fees. I paid my way through school through the little money I earned from the job I had, but exam was near and my school fees was not complete, I needed just about fifteen thousand in my currency to complete it. At that time, the money was nothing to her husband because he had just received pension that ran into millions. Right before my eyes, he bought whatever his children asked for, so I thought the money I asked for won’t be a big deal. To my shock, when she told him about it, she also told him not to give me because I was working.

I’ve had many sad experiences, but that has remained the saddest of all. But God helped me, I called a woman I worked with and she gave me even double the amount.

Another time came when her daughter slapped me and pushed me out of the house – telling me to go to my own father’s house. I can’t forget the hot tears that flowed down my face as I cried to God about it – outside the house. While you may think that I must have done something wrong, I also thought deeply about it; what wrong did Joseph do against his brothers that was not forgivable? If they considered me to be a son or a sibling, then forgiveness should be automated – at least that’s a common thing amongst blood related people.

As I cried to God that day to tell me what to do, He gave me a response that would remain a surprise to me; “Show them love”. Please tell me, how do I show love to a people that are constantly sowing seeds of bitterness into my heart? That was the very next question I asked God. Somehow, He directed me to read a book by Kenneth Hagin titled “LOVE: THE WAY TO VICTORY”. It’s from that book that I began to learn that it’s not my fault that some people decided to be mean to me, and just because they are mean to me doesn’t mean I have to take their wickedness to heart. How I feel within is totally up to me. Despite how I feel, I must understand that I owe them love.

With an assurance that love never fails, I decided to implement all the inspirations I had gotten from the book. And guess what? It worked! It wasn’t easy at first, but I got used to making a joke of every demoralizing thing they said or did to me. I’d literally tell them that “it’s not that bad and that they could have just said it nicely – it’s not like we have a fight”. I knew that their hearts were hardened towards me, but I consciously chose my response, a response that gave me energy.

Speaking of a hardened heart, we must all be careful about what we conceive in our hearts towards people. If God hardened the heart of Pharaoh, then He can harden anybody’s heart. To harden a heart doesn’t just mean to make someone obstinate, it also means to amplify the evil that is already conceived in a person’s heart. If it’s in your heart for me not to travel, you may not do anything to stop me. But if your heart becomes hardened by the Lord, then you’d start taking physical actions. I’ve seen this happened to even pastors.

While you may want to say that God used them to give someone a breakthrough, God is a just God, He doesn’t manipulate people. I wouldn’t say God used those women to push me towards my destiny; rather, I’d say they became a basis through which the scriptures was fulfilled in my life. If their hearts didn’t conceive any evil towards me, there would have been nothing to harden. Ofcourse God was looking for avenues to train me, but He wasn’t necessarily looking for them. It’s just unfortunate that they had the minimum requirement needed to perform that task. If they knew better, they would have cleansed their heart.

Each time I read that God hardened the heart of Pharaoh, I wondered why God would manipulate someone like that. This minute Pharaoh agrees to free the children of Israel, and the next minute he stops the movement again. No! God didn’t manipulate him, He simply amplified the thoughts of his heart. It was quite obvious that Pharaoh couldn’t do anything against the God of Israel, but maybe God gave him an idea that strenghtened him in a way that he felt he could stop them. When you start thinking of hiding your friend’s passport, then your heart has been hardened. When you refuse to support a sibling with transport fare to attend an interview, it’s most likely that your heart has been hardened. Otherwise, what other reason would you have to deny your sibling of an opportunity to prosper in life?

If you’re a victim of a hardened heart, then it might interest you to know that this is a common training for those who God wants to use for specific assignments. You’d have to rely on His word to get things done.

As I conclude, focus on getting to the promised land. The hardness and difficulty you’re facing is an opportunity to manifest the promises of God. Study the word of God to know His promises, fast and pray till they begin to find expression in your life. If your mother doesn’t stop you from sleeping, then it means you have a roof over your head. That’s enough to embark on this journey of transformation. If she doesn’t give you food, then that’s an opportunity to live a fasted life. Believe me, the more you know God, the more the challenges fade.

I hope this has brought enlightenment to someone.

Remain ever blessed, in Jesus precious name!

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